[ Jada Pinkett Smith ]Real story behind her realtionship with Tupac Shakur

"He was a revolutionary without a revolution if that makes any kind sense. And that kind of energy transferred to a whole other thing,'' Jada speaks with Howard Stern on Sirius XM
Jada Pinkett Smith and Tupac Shakur
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Jada Pinkett Smith is finally revealing the truth behind her relationship with the late Tupac Shakur  who died nearly 20 years ago.

In a new interview with Howard Stern on Sirius XM radio show on Wednesday, June 3, Will Smith's wife of 20 years admitted that her relationship with the late rapper was 'really close' but something led to their 'break up'.

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"You know, it's so funny. Now being older, I have more of an understanding of what that was between us. When you have two young people that have very strong feelings, but there was no physical chemistry between us at all, and it wasn't even just for me! It was him too. There was a time when I was like, 'Just kiss me! Let's just see how this goes.' When I tell you it had to be the most disgusting kiss for us both,'' the 43-year-old actress reflected.

Were they ever intimate?

"The only way I can put it is that the higher power did not want it at all. If Pac and I had any kind of sexual chemistry, we might have killed each other because we were both so passionate. And you know, we loved deeply. It was hard enough with us just being friends. It was volatile relationship."

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How did they separated?

"He went to jail. There was a lot of things that transpired once he went to jail. It was really when he came out. Jail was a very difficult experience for him, and of course, we were on two sides of the spectrum. Pac and I have always had very intense conversations... and we had a very hardcore disagreement."

And one those disagreements led to the end of their friendship:

"I just wasn't in agreement with the direction that he was taking, and I told him that, you know, it was a destructive direction. A very scary direction. And he felt as though I had changed. I'd gone Hollywood. I'd gone soft. And looking back now, I totally understand where Pac was at the time... It was a mentality he started to come out of before he was murdered."

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Was she in love with him?

"I don't think I was guilty as much as I felt just sadness, for not having the opportunity to tell him that I loved him. But, I know he knew that. It wasn't the first time that we had had a bad argument and stopped speaking. That was a constant in our relationship. It definitely taught me a lesson... Which is life is too short. Do not let disagreements stand in between you and people that you love."

Jada still remains proud at how much he inspires people through his legacy.